I’ve been in bed for two days with a migraine and it’s driving me nuts. I know I shouldn’t be staring at my laptop screen but I need to do something. I have wandered outside and put a wash on but I feel like I need a little ramble, you know – pop my thoughts somewhere.
Sometimes I sit and wonder why on earth I bother doing what I am doing. Y’know when you put 110% into something and then it almost flatlines? Or screaming something from the rooftops to have nobody hear? The days when you just think, ‘it’s not fair’. I have been feeling all of the above a lot lately. Last week I posted a video I was really proud of and lost 8 subscribers. My Instagram followers never go up. I am rubbish at keeping up to date with Twitter so I feel as though I miss out on so much. I try really hard but constantly feel like it’s never enough.
But, believe it or not, I don’t want this post to be a negative one or just a place for me to have a moan. Nope. Today, this post is about you. I want to say thank you. As often as I have those thoughts, I have twice the amount of comments patting me on the back. My channel is growing so slowly in numbers, I feel, but those who do subscribe, watch and comment make it worthwhile.
I love making videos and creating content don’t get me wrong. It’s just sometimes I wish I had more to show for it. We don’t have monthly meetings in this job. It’s just little old me, from the minute I think of an idea right up to the sharing and promotion of it. I don’t just have one role, I have multiple.
Lately, I’ve had a lot of comments asking for advice or messaging to say I make your day that little bit better. I am lucky enough to have the loveliest, supportive viewers/readers/audience/pals that I could wish for. You don’t realise how much it makes me day to receive a comment off one of you telling me I am doing okay, or that you loved what a piece of my content. I just want to get better and improve from one day to the next. I want to make this work because I love it so much. The thought that I have made an ounce of difference to one persons day makes me get up, get my ass in gear and do better. It makes me smile too. A LOT.
So I guess what I am trying to say is this. You’re doing okay. I’m doing okay. If today you’ve felt like you could have done more, or something didn’t go to plan – tomorrow can be different. Work hard to get somewhere. Praise somebody. Let them thank you for it. We have to believe it will be worth it in the end. If it isn’t, it certainly will have shaped us & helped us to grow. Don’t focus on the numbers, focus on the people. The rest, I’m hoping, will follow. When we’re 80, the levels of Instagram engagement or YouTube views ain’t gonna make a scrap of difference. Those around you and the experiences you share will.
You keep me going. If you’re one of those that has metaphorically patted me on the back, this one’s for you.